Okay then...

Since people have been telling I'm a slacker and not writing a lot,... I'll post. ;) The only thing is though, I haven't been writing a lot because, well,.. there hasn't been a whole lot good to write about. One great thing's been happening but it is somewhat unrelated to what else has been happening. So here goes,.... (since you asked for it and all).

Christmas this year SUCKED. Yes, I put up outside lights and a tree and all that was great. Those things made me happy. But I don't know what's going on this Christmas,... it seems like I've just been in a funky mood and depression. I thought a lot about mom today and that made it really rough. I know last year we didn't have her, but this year, I gave presents to people, I put up a tree, and I wasn't proccupied with moving into a new house. So I had time to think,.... about her. It rained a lot this week, drizzling all Christmas Day. That sucked. It just felt gloomy.

My wife didn't get me anything for Christmas. I know we talked beforehand and said we wouldn't, but hell, when does she EVER listen to me anyway? I seriously thought she'd get me at least something small. I played Santa and were it not for the 2 DvDs I put in my own stocking I'd have not been able to unwrap anything on Christmas Day. It seems like I had to argue about everything with her today. Stupid petty stuff too,... like the dishwasher.

My job is to fill it and clean the kithen. Her job is to empty it so I can fill it. Dishes have been piling up all week and I've been asking her to empty it ---- so that I wouldn't have to do a lot of work on Christmas day when it came time to cook and use dishes. She emptied it after much nagging on Christmas Day. I know I could've done it days earlier, but that's not the point. We had a deal and she promised me she'd do it. Sure, she had to work a couple of days this week but I did clean the house, grocery shopped, did 5 loads of clothes, went Christmas shopping in the CROWDS for relatives, I went to work a little bit too, and I cooked her really nice meals each night, including steak (which she loves and I tolerate). After cleaning the kitchen after all that mess today, I didn't feel like cooking, so no Christmas Day supper for me. That sortof ruined it too. I bought all kinds of yummy stuff to make too.

Add to all this the fact that I was down and blue about mom, and it made things worse,.. like Mom wouldn't have let all these mini-disasters happen, or if they did, she would've plowed through them and still pulled off a fantastic Christmas. She was amazing at that. She really was a Superwoman. I guess I sortof felt like she would've disapproved of the way today turned out. Yet I know even after all that she would've said to me with caring and love, "Awww, honey, it'll be alright." and she'd give me the biggest warmest hug this planet had ever seen.

Yep, Christmas Sucked.
So there,... I posted something new. =P
I do hope your Christmas was better than mine....

Sorry it was a sad one, and sorry for the self-pity. Maybe next time I'll post a happy one to counterbalance it. I sure hope so. Hang with me. I know everything will be alright. ;) Here's looking forward to a NEW year!